I had a hard time dragging myself out of bed today as my attempts to deny what happened on Election Day increasingly fail. An old Peter and Gorden song written by John Lennon and Paul McCartney has been playing in my head since Wednesday morning:
“Please lock me away
And don’t allow the day
Here inside where I hide
With my loneliness
I don’t care what they say
I won’t stay in a world without love
Birds sing out of tune
And rain clouds hide the moon
I’m okay, here I’ll stay
With my loneliness
I don’t care what they say
I won’t stay in a world without love.”
That’s how much of me feels today, and I appreciate all the posts from friends that have affirmed the need to take time for self-care and grief. I’m still functioning, even though I feel like a zombie much of the time, going through the motions of life without much energy.
I don’t know how long this grief will last. It is what it is, and it is important to both embrace it and share it with others who need to know we are not in this mess alone.
In due time the sun will shine again. The birds will sing in tune once more, and together we will create communities of hope and love that can sustain resistance and defiance of a world without love.
Peacefully Harsh 
I am at a quandary, if you are a pastor, why do you not trust God enough to know that everything happens according to His plan and not ours: His will and not ours? No judgement just a question and who do you put your faith in?
Julie, pastors are not immune from doubt and despair. We deal with people’s pain and suffering all the time. That does not mean we/I do not place ultimate trust in God’s final victory over sin and evil. But in the meantime God expects us to work for truth and justice in a broken world. Biblical history is full of human mistakes and political disasters which require a faithful remnant to restore faithful living. I believe we are in such a state now, and when humans find ourselves there we need to own our grief and share it in community. We have a whole book in the Bible of Lamentations where people cry out to God for deliverance from painful and frightening situations. Our God is so powerful that he/she can handle our doubts.
Pastor I hope you will forgive me, I do forget sometimes that we expect so much of our leaders and they are just as human as the next. I know God will give you the peace and solace you seek. Julie
Thanks. Blessings to you also, Julie.