Hi God, it’s me again. I am so bummed. The whole mess in D.C. and Gaza/Israel is just sapping so much energy from me. I’m a pastor and writer, but I’m not sure even what can be said. The forces of violence and vengeance are so much in control of the world as usual that innocent suffering doesn’t matter. I have to tell you, Lord, the ways of peace seem so puny and weak against drones and bombs dropped on refugee camps. How can those in power be so unmoved by the suffering and death of thousands? Are they so insulated and hardened by years of power madness that the pain doesn’t reach their hearts? It is so terribly sad and discouraging since it has been this way from the beginning of time. It seems so irresponsible on my part to try and live life as usual – but then we have two good friends in nursing homes and their suffering and that of their family and friends on a different level, but still quite real. Combine that with the cold dreary weather and my own health concerns and life sucks big time. Woe is me. I’m turned in on myself and too much focused on the half empty glass. I know that, but what to do about it? I just started my 78th trip around the sun this week and should be smarter by now. Where is the wisdom that is supposed to come with age when I need it? O God, please give me patience and courage for the living of these days. Amen
Peacefully Harsh 